Good Bye

Well. Today was my last full day as Mrs. Jacobson, Special Education Teacher. Yep. last full day. it feels like the last day of school, you know that you will never be in the same group of kids again. i will go back tomarrow for half a day, but thats its. i leave at lunch. i think my aide is very nervous about who is taking my place. i am worried about who is taking my place. this class is very unique. they take a lot of patience, you nearly have to do everything for them. but sometimes its really cool, they remember something you have tried and tried to teach them, and you didnt think they noticed. today i really felt like a teacher. i walked into library to pick them up, and on the overhead was "Mrs. Jacobson" and then a bunch of blank lines, and all the kids had a paper, and they were writing letters to me, wishing me luck at school, saying they'll miss me, saying what they liked me helping them with. and this morning luciano's mother sent a note saying how much she appreciated me taking time to teacher her son, she said she really noticed hes getting better at reading and can write on his own now. aww. then there are days like today, when it makes it easy for me walk away. all day today they werent listening very well, and instead of getting cupcakes , they didnt. they got to put their heads down and practice listening and following directions. but yah know? im glad i got the opportunity to be a long term sub, to see what its like being a teacher. i never thought i liked 3-5th grade, but i like these kids. they are all so different. and its given me a lot of experience, this past month. it just feels strange not to go back now. im used to that classroom now... and i'll really miss a lot of these kids. they are so funny. im glad i got to know them. it is very rewarding to teach them. and although it can be very frusterating when you wait at the front of the room for them to be quiet and they dont even notice , and just get louder and louder, sometimes its a lot of fun. But tomarrow i say goodbye. i will never be a teacher or a substitute teacher ever again. im not swearing it off, i am just saying, i start school may 1, then i'll go to school and then i will be an aesthetist. and then i will work at the clinic until i have children of my own. Well. i really do love these students, even though i was with them a relatively short time. i worry about them in the future. so many of them have such a bleak future- a lot of their parents are on drugs and what not. they have very tough lives for being so little. Im out! (no pun intended!) (i attached a few pictures of my students and my aide)